I Am Willing to Take Loaner Ponies, Unicorns, Butterflies or Babies

It has been a fantastic month…in theory.

I turned 30.

John Xavier turned 1.

I got a new and exciting job.

My sister-in-law got engaged and I get to be a bridesmaid.

My mom had an opening for a botanical art show she is in at the New York Botanical Garden.

I officially became a Catholic during the beautiful, ceremonial, 3 hour, Easter Vigil.

Life is good.  And special.  And there have been celebrations and things to celebrate around every corner.

And yet, I am feeling some sort of down. Heavy. Unhappy. Snappy. Grumpy.

And I have had a serious case of Writer’s Block.

Maybe it’s this weather.  We have moved from the Longest Winter Ever straight into The Rainiest Spring Ever.

Maybe it’s adjusting to being away from my kids more often now that I am working again.

Maybe it’s that we stopped fitting in our workouts.

Maybe it’s just fatigue and stress.

Who knows?  Not me.

I just know I am Over. It.

I am ready to turn this frown upside down.

I am also curious to know if you have ever had this happen?  Felt sad when you should feel happy?  Because I would love to know that I don’t need to be sent off immediately to the looney bin.  And I would also love to hear what tricks you use when you need some cheering up and the usual suspects aren’t working?

I really can’t afford to buy a miniature giraffe right now, but I am open to all other suggestions.

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4 Responses to I Am Willing to Take Loaner Ponies, Unicorns, Butterflies or Babies

  1. Monica says:

    Oh man, I’ve had this problem a lot during the past year. I think that I had some post-partum depression (not that I think this is what you have) but just putting it out there. On paper, my life is great. But there’s just something wrong, something missing, something that doesn’t feel right. And of course when I’m surrounded by a lot of people with much worse problems than me, I feel terrible, but it’s not always pulling me out. How do I get out of it? I do a lot of gratitude listing. Go on a date night with my husband. If we can’t go out, then at least have a night of no TV and just talking. Girls’ night out. Eating healthier. Drinking more water. All those things…and then…knowing that the bad times makes me appreciate the good times even more can help. But most of all, keep talking about it! That’s the best thing because the more you can process it all, the better. Hugs! Been there, done that, may even be there next week 🙂

  2. Monica – Thank you. I can always count on you to be honest and supportive. It means a lot to know that at least one other person has gone through this.

    I believe I am having a Karaoke birthday celebration this Saturday, so maybe that will help release this funk. Perhaps I should go ahead and use the spa certificate my sisters-in-law got for me, as well. It just really is hard to find the time to do things like that….as I know you know.

    And I am definitely going to try the gratitude listing.

    As far as post-partum depression, I suppose if I had found some spare time I could have checked out that possibility…again, I am sure you were in the same boat.

    Thank you again, for being willing to share and support. You’re the best. 🙂

    And if you come across a unicorn, I seriously won’t turn it down. I’m just saying…

  3. Nina says:

    Awww feel better, Annie. Not to be all me..me..me… BUT your list of monthly accomplishments made me happy. The weather has some strange hold on my life/mood. So hopefully spring will set in and New York will make you smile. I also recommend watching good, heart-warming movies–or even going to the movies (one of my absolute favorite things in the world). I think your spa-day is an excellent idea–feeling pretty goes a loooong way (for me at least). Buy yourself something special–like a fancy clarisonic mia http://www.clarisonic.com/shop/sonic_skin_cleansing_systems/sonic_skin_cleansing_system_mia/index.php–they had one in leopard print that I was going to suggest, but I can’t find it. I just ordered one and I am SUPER excited about it. Or, try zumba–I have never done it, but people LOVE it–if you do actually try this be sure to let me know how it goes. Try a new drink. Go for a long walk and try to think about all the amazing things in your life (weather permitting). Read a trashy book–my guilty pleasure is chick lit. Okay, I think I have listed my top favorite ways to escape a funk. Again, know that I think you ROCK and I know that there are a bus load of other readers that feel the same way. 🙂

  4. Nina – This is such an excellent list of suggestions! Thank you for taking the time to help me try to get out of this funk. I am working on it from several angles. Well, that is actually a total lie.

    BUT we are finally going on a vacation next week and I plan on relaxing, starting up jogging, and maybe even making time for a date night with the hubby…which will, of course, requite a mani/pedi.

    I think I should, all in all, be a new woman when we return.

    Again, THANK YOU. Women supporting women is so powerful and touching.

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