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Joining Clubs

2013.  This year has done it’s best to beat us down.  Well, actually, I guess cancer tried to beat us down.  Actually, to be more specific, Thyroid Cancer has really come at us with a vengeance.  Yes, the past couple weeks we have been dealing with a second case in the family and additional family [...]

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The Kids Will be Okay

All weekend I felt it building.  Fear, worry, sadness.  By Sunday night it peaked into what I can only describe as an anxiety attack. My heart was racing;  I could feel it strongly beating in my chest so very quickly.  I couldn’t catch my breath.  I couldn’t fall asleep.  My whole body was tense. I [...]

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How D’ya Do, Wackadoo?

From Kalamazoo. I was about to erase all of that.  Or at least the part about Kalamazoo.  But then I realized it actually works perfectly to demonstrate what it is I came here to talk about. If you have seen me in person since October, you may have noticed that my phone screen resembles the [...]

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Static

I certainly don’t feel like trying to explain the hodge podge of emotions I have felt recently. (Not that this Vicodin, even when used sparingly, truly permits writing coherently enough to do so anyway.) And the fact that I have remained in a position ‘lacking movement, development or vitality’ for the past five days isn’t helping my inspiration.

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Living

My blogging routine goes something like this:  Think of something I feel like discussing, fight to find a few free minutes during nap time or after the boys’ bedtime on nights my husband has class, write. I don’t do a lot of pausing, thinking or editing.  Pretty much, I just kind of swoop a net [...]

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The Fear of Uncertainty

I keep sitting down to write these past few weeks and ending up with nothing.  I check my nonsensical gibberish in the notes section on my phone, think about funny or important things happening in the world, in New York or with my family.  Sometimes I just put my fingers on the keyboard and see [...]

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In Other Terrifying News, My Son is a Lefty

Carlitos is left-handed. I have always thought of this fact as merely another trait I can use to describe him. Carlos Eli: Light brown hair.  Dark brown almond eyes.  Silly.  Alphabet lover.  Building cities with blocks lover.  Knocking block cities over lover.  Anchovy, caper and olive eater.   Bug hater.  Tall.  Thin.  Affectionate.   Tiger fearing lion [...]

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Deadly Words

You may think I am going to discuss Sarah Palin’s ‘attack map’ with cross-hairs over representatives and tweeted jargon such as “Don’t retreat’;  RELOAD!”  Personally, I know this tragedy is still fresh in my mind and still makes my stomach turn when I think about it. However, I actually have another topic on my mind, [...]

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