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Control and Chaos

I keep beating myself up about the fact that I haven’t made this blog a priority.  Whenever someone mentions that they wish I would post more I mentally kick myself for not focusing on this space and building it into what I know it could become if I nurtured it more.  I mean, that is [...]

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Joining Clubs

2013.  This year has done it’s best to beat us down.  Well, actually, I guess cancer tried to beat us down.  Actually, to be more specific, Thyroid Cancer has really come at us with a vengeance.  Yes, the past couple weeks we have been dealing with a second case in the family and additional family [...]

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Regrouping

I just read through my two most recent posts.  It was actually pretty difficult to do. Even though writing has been an excellent way for me to work through confusing events in my life, a way to cope and heal and make my way through murky situations and emotions, this was too much.  Dealing with [...]

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Kind of Bleh

It has been 27 days since I had surgery.  Two and a half months since I was told I had cancer.  Both experiences are still vivid in my mind if I choose to replay them.  But both also kind of feel like an eternity ago. I think for that reason, I keep wanting to write [...]

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How D’ya Do, Wackadoo?

From Kalamazoo. I was about to erase all of that.  Or at least the part about Kalamazoo.  But then I realized it actually works perfectly to demonstrate what it is I came here to talk about. If you have seen me in person since October, you may have noticed that my phone screen resembles the [...]

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Enjoying the Spell

Let me begin with a few little housekeeping notes: I BEAT CANCER. How’s that for a hashtag BOOM moment?  Cancer Survivor. #BOOM Yup, sucker didn’t stand a chance.  TKO down for the count in the first round. (I am possibly mixing sports slang gibberish to be even more gibberishy, but what the heck.)  The call [...]

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Static

I certainly don’t feel like trying to explain the hodge podge of emotions I have felt recently. (Not that this Vicodin, even when used sparingly, truly permits writing coherently enough to do so anyway.) And the fact that I have remained in a position ‘lacking movement, development or vitality’ for the past five days isn’t helping my inspiration.

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Dark Clouds and Silver Linings

Lonesome. A family friend (who survived stage 4 lung cancer) used that word in an email to me last week.  I feel as though my emotions and thoughts have been swirling chaotically around inside of me for the past two weeks.  Hearing the words, “You have cancer.” shook me.  As someone who is usually able [...]

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Curveball

So, I am going to rip off the bandaid right away, just like my doctor did Thursday night when he called me with the full results from my biopsies. The bad news: I have cancer. The good news: I have one of the best endocrinologists in the world and will be meeting with a chief [...]

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The Fear of Uncertainty

I keep sitting down to write these past few weeks and ending up with nothing.  I check my nonsensical gibberish in the notes section on my phone, think about funny or important things happening in the world, in New York or with my family.  Sometimes I just put my fingers on the keyboard and see [...]

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